Circus of Fear

Fear has settled deep within me, comfortably nestled in my lower chakras, like it's found the perfect Airbnb. It's so deeply entrenched, surrounded by what feels like an impenetrable fortress, that even a hundred excavators couldn't reach it. As I delve into the depths of what has dimmed my inner light into a gloomy glow, I've uncovered this inability to stabilize parts of myself. This has led to a circus of chronic chaos, skedaddling successes, a lovely paranoia with its hyperactive security system reminding me of our government and political spectacular demonstration of instability, my chosen monkey partners' infidelity and both mental brainiacal and physical meat suit health issues. The calamity concoction of natural an unnatural disasters, false narrative and propaganda only add to the big top bonanza I call the Chaos Carnival. Even thou I know myself to be more than the happenstances of my life I can't help but wonder where in the hell did all this originate? With all the work I've done surrounding these things I don't even care where the hell it's from; I'm sending it back to whence it came because I'm done! Bye bitch & take your flying monkeys with you!