The Role I Mastered, The One I Must Leave

Aww, what the hell?! It started with a call. It’s them again, same old story. They can’t see themselves outside the box they’ve put themselves in. It’s so hurtful, and so damn beautiful at the same time.

Once again, I find myself giving the same words and energetic healing back to them until they finally allow themselves to see the greatness of how their emotional guidance system is playing its part so graciously. They’ve completely mastered the role, and yet they can’t see that there is so much more to life tugging at their heartstrings.

"You're comfortable in this role because you've mastered it. It’s time to close the curtains and start a new role."

"Each day, I played the role of someone always in control"

So, yesterday was a day that felt so heavy on the physical body. I did everything I could to numb it, just so I could stop feeling the way I was feeling—which did not feel good at all. I wanted to pick some story from the past or even the future, just so I could “make it through the day.” Aww, FUCK! But the forever question kept appearing: “WHY?” That question eludes me every time. So, I did the best I could in the mundane and went to sleep early. (Yup, I turned off Avatar and RESTED.)

This morning, I woke up with feelings of “Okay, you got this” (though it was still uncomfortable to get out of bed). Then, in a moment, I heard this phrase—twice: “Watch your mouth.” Followed by: “Healing—what is that, anyway?” A commodity? Its jargon sold as a commodity, AKA mental illness needing a fix—What the hell?!

Then the story of the Medicine we take: Alcohol. Smoking. Pills. Shopping. Microdosing. Ayahuasca. Fitness. Food. Meditation. Working out...Yes, even the supposed good things, disguised as the medicine to alchemize those unwanted, disease-riddled emotions... Yet those very emotions that seem to appear out of" NO-WHERE", are here, in the moment to set you free.

Some of this was triggered by the story of the fear of rejection and abandonment. Because, in that moment, I found myself alone with me, which is the perfect setting, it's magical! It’s a divine opportunity to give myself back the self-acceptance, I once gave to someone else, just so I could feel Enough, or Worthy. What a trap, what a loop!

This story, in the moment, isn’t asking why anymore. Finally, the silence is felt without the story—And I wept. You know that ugly cry...The one that could silence nature itself. And then as if by complete and utter surrender—it happened. That deep breath. Released. Felt. Transformed.

Yes! My body is now taking up the space that was once filled with noise. And finally, I am free.

I share this as a reminder: Stay in the present moment. Because this is truly where you will get your answers—in everything, everyone, every place.

This time is the best time for your Soul—your Sole evolution—for greater expansion. And while it may seem uncomfortable and chaotic at a collective level, deep down there is a part of you just waiting for you to arrive In Time, This Time!

This is magic, my friends. The kind of magic that only you can do—And it must be done within.

As above, so below. (You know me—I just had to add those Universal principles that are here and at play.) #Soulexpansion # presentmomenthealing #radicalselfacceptance #emotionalalchemy #instantmanifestation #masteremotions #asabovesobelow